Working through moodiness

For those of you who might have tried to reach me today, or for those I might have had some contact with today, I apologize that I've been short and moody. Today wasn't exactly what I'd consider a good day, and it's probably going to take a little time for me to get over it.

Was told today that, pretty much, the Shreveport deal is a no-go. For details I can't really go into on the business side of things, The Times can't hire me, or anybody, to fill their position. And nobody really knows when they'll be able to.

The whole situation frustrates me, as I'm sure some of you know. It's been about a month since I applied for that job. And it's just drug on and on and on. It really frustrated me that this couldn't have been taken care of sooner, and now it appears like it won't be taken care of.
It really disappoints me that I can't get my wife back to north Louisiana so she can work with her brother. I think it would have been a great opportunity for both of them, and it really saddens me that I couldn't make it happen.

But now I just move on. I'm here in Cenla for however long, and I'll make the best of it. I really wasn't looking to leave, but I did get my heart set of going to Shreveport and getting back to north Louisiana. I'm disappointed. But it's not the end of the world. I have a good job here and a good life. Although I am depressed right now.

There are some other things going on in my life, too, that are of some concern to me. It's nothing I'm ready to go into detail here on the blog, but a big announcement was made at church this Sunday that sort of frightens me and concerns me. The direction of the church, and what I'm looking for from my church, aren't lining up. I have some major praying, thinking and decisions to make. I love my kids. They are a lot of fun. But I haven't had the time that I want to put into it. And now with this announcement, I feel further away than I have since I walked in the door. I don't know if I can give the church what it needs, or if the church can give me what I need. This partly adds to my depression today.

I hope for the best, and I surely don't want to lose my kids. But I've been drained lately, and I haven't felt like I can give what I need to give. And if I can't give what I feel like I should give, I don't feel like I should be a part of it. That's my nature. I don't want to drag anyone down, and I feel like I've been doing. Again, I have a lot to pray about. Please add me to your lists.

Blonde Moment

So Elizabeth and I weren't really doing too much on our day off today. Got up late, as usual. Grabbed a little lunch. Went to check out some mattresses, as the one we have now is giving both our backs some problems.

We really were just spending some quality time together. We went to the mall and did some looking (and some buying, but that's another story). Then, as we were heading out, Elizabeth mentioned something about my needing a haircut.

Just a little background. I don't particularly like to get my hair cut. I like to keep it longer, just because with my thousand cowlicks, it's easier to maintain when it's that length, rather than shorter. But Elizabeth prefers shorter.

Anyway, I've been wanting a change for a while. Been wanting to add a little color to my life. So I said what the heck ... let's get some highlights. I haven't colored my hair in two years, when Elizabeth and I went all out at a day spa in Boston on our honeymoon. So I get there, run through some books, pick out a style and color I'd like and sit down in a chair.

The picture I thought I'd shown had light brown/auburn highlights. Apparently, the stylist thought they were blonde. It wasn't until she called me blondie when she was about to shampoo my hair that I figured out what was going on. I had blonde highlights. Now, I actually like the way it turned out, but it is going to take a little time to get used to having blonde in my hair!

Meanwhile, as I'm in the chair, Elizabeth brings a picture from a style book over and asks me if I liked it. It was cute, and short. While Elizabeth likes to keep her hair long, I think she's really pretty with short hair. So I said, 'Go for it!' Another little story -- when Elizabeth and I first met and started dating, she had blonde highlights. So I like it when she gets her hair colored.

Anyway, that's how our day off turned into a blonde makeover!!!